20. Let Not Life Slip By

3/31/08 11:51 PM

Enjoy your loved ones. Everyone fights, but don't let
the world weigh you down and bring your frustrations
home. Be humble, or be humbled. Take nothing and no
one for granted. Any and every second could be the
last. Don't make my mistakes.

Some of you have told me not to beat myself up. A
great sadness fills fill heart and carves out a great
emptiness. She loved me as I was. Never again will I
know love like that. She was there, then she was
gone. Died right in front of me. And me like an
asshole, I thought she'd be okay.

After 9/11, I just wanted to hide at home and be safe.
Now I am alone forever. I should be whipped like a
flagellate. I should have built her a palace.